The Writing

I really should be doing homework right now, but i feel like i can't unless i get this off my chest.

There is this feeling in me that i have no admiration for. It is my selfishness. And from this selfishness grows jealousy. It is not easily expressed or seen on the outside, but its there, i feel it, i know it. I am without words to describe my feelings at this point. Its this subtle numbness. A collaboration of too many feelings.

This contradictory feeling within myself. A contradiction of feelings, that leads to conflicting emotions. It is strong. If asked the reason why the sudden displeasure, i don't think i feel like answering. It is just important for me to tell you, the reader, how i feel. The reason is not to be known yet.

It is not to be known until i resolve the issues that reside in me. When? i know not when yet. Hopefully soon.
Hopefully.

Thanks for reading.

-Alex Tran